blOgbuefi

writing to know, knowing thru being, being for writing... this is me, writing about the one thing i know, which is myself... and even that is sometimes a mystery...

Sunday, September 25, 2005

capturing the invisible

i had an amazing night.

very infrequently do i ever feel every fiber of my being come alive in the way i did last night. i don't know what it was, but i felt really, truly happy.

and this all seems so ridiculous, like a cliche i'm putting out there for the world to see and cringe at and feel disgusted by. but i don't even care. which is the great thing.

because as i write this post, i just want to scream and throttle and beat my happiness out on the empty spaces between all the other people and fly to the sky and come pummeling back to the ground and soaring high and low and senseless, tripping madly and foolishly and motherly and sad to all the corners of the world, screaming the word, the word, the word, and then i would be happy and everyone would know it.

i am so happy and dwelling in it so completely, that i now lose myself in the grand beauty of it all and words don't even matter any more and these words i am typing are borne of something completely apart and alien and strange and frightening to me.

when sense can be abandoned and honesty is what comes pouring, screaming out, that's when you know for certain.

and the invisible becomes more tangible and your words that once were contained in the world, have subversed the order and the world is reduced to the word and you are finally satisfied and happy.

4 Comments:

  • At 5:25 PM, September 25, 2005, Blogger The ZenFo Pro said…

    Hehehe...tried to catch some of your sho, but laptop was being ornery...lol...

    What the heck did you, anyway? :-)

     
  • At 7:16 PM, September 25, 2005, Blogger Ogbuefi Stephi said…

    what do you mean?

     
  • At 10:25 AM, September 26, 2005, Blogger The ZenFo Pro said…

    Oops...sorry for the tons of typos...lol...like I said, laptop was acting up this weekend.

    Missed your Av. Couch debut...

    What the heck did you do to make yourself so happy?

     
  • At 10:44 AM, September 26, 2005, Blogger Ogbuefi Stephi said…

    oh, haha, it's ok.

    dang, i'm sorry you missed the show. it was pretty good... should be posting the playlist on the site soon...

    oh, and i just had a really nice night. you know, lots of good conversation, catching up with old friends, mending broken relationships, bridging the gap between strangers, breaking and entering...

    and discovering i still have something i thought i had lost a long time ago.

     

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