writing to know, knowing thru being, being for writing... this is me, writing about the one thing i know, which is myself... and even that is sometimes a mystery...

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

making the transition

you know how i said a while ago that i was soon to be switching my online home to the site with an easier name?

well, that isn't going to be happening in quite the way i imagined.

i've found it hard to abandon this blog completely. it would be like turning twenty and saying that being ten didn't mean anything to the person i am now. (which is silly. first, because it's impossible, to be twenty you have to have been ten. and second, because ten was my favorite age and so to deny being ten would truly be wrong.)

i was going to change this address to but have since created another blog, which many of you, i see, have discovered, a blog called free radical writings, which resides at the precise address of my name. i've found though, that the blog possessing of my name i have been more careful about writing for, and i've only posted stuff of a certain type so far. and i wish to keep it that way. i want it to be a more "serious" blog, in the sense that i want it to be more "professional." that is, it will only pertain to my work, video, artistic, poetic, activist, or otherwise. i didn't want it to contain any of my silly personal ramblings or moanings about love or loss or depression or existential crises or whatever.

which is not to say i don't recognize the importance of these to my work. quite the contrary, i think these things are sometimes more telling than any of the nominal work i do. (that's why i've retained and will maintain a co-linking between the serious blog and this one, because they are mirrors of each other, and what do you get when you put two mirrors together? an infinity tunnel of mirrors, a wormhole of selves and tunneled glass! ha ha!)

i just think i should have a place on the net to post my "work" and to have that stuff connected to my name, even if only in link alone (have you noticed how my name is not connected to anything posted here? even on the new site, my name is absent from title and profile name). there should be a place for my name on the internet, where people in future times and in places not even discovered yet to google my name and upon much scrolling and fishing for them to find my work, simple and small as it is. and there should be a place for my ceaseless ramblings and reflections and blah blah's where i don't have to worry about posting them. and that is here. and will continue to be here, as childhood to adulthood. as my ten to my twenty.

so for my creative work, my professional work or what-have-you, go to free radical writings, aka the home space for my name on the net,

for my more prolific and easy posts on my personal life, on the inspirations to my work, for my personal happenings, come here! and read all about the struggles tribulations loves and passions of yours truly.

in the meantime, do enjoy this little post i wrote. it is something i think i would have posted here before, but i thought it related to my activism, and it is certainly a passion, so i posted it at the other place. i figure i need more stuff to get it rolling. it has been kinda stagnant.


Tuesday, August 15, 2006


i'm in love.


Monday, August 14, 2006

another case of mistaken identity

i get spam emails all the time from people who mix up my email with someone else's. it's becoming a problem because instead of getting the usual chance-poetic spam i relish so much, i'm getting boring dreck intended for people who actually subscribe to sex-enhancing newsletters.

such as this one, from robert:
Hi Bro, Every day thousands of guys have this problem. You can stand out from the crowd. Choose Extra-Time for a reliable comprehensive method that really cures you. Hate seeing her unhappy face after you finish too quickly? Find what you need here: the courage and performance you need to be the best man of her life.

please no one click on that link. it will only lead to bad bad things.

is this a problem for anyone else out there, or is this some sort of cosmic email karma teaching me a lesson never to enjoy the artistic happenstance of spam?

Sunday, August 13, 2006

as promised...

pix from the most amazing and well-spent endless hours in the sun of summer, losing body weight thru my pores and gaining friends, both local and famous and unapproachable.

i think the cranberries just came on the ipod and i am a little more than surprised, as i had forgotten i ever listened to them in my past of pasts and am now going to find something else to listen to, because after a week of awesome live music the cranberries just aren't cutting it, sorry.
-stephanie (who apparently writes very long closing statements...huh must be a new development)

Saturday, August 12, 2006

beachy keen

hello friends and lovers... of my blog. :-)

er, anyway, i just got back from one of the most amazing summers of my life. chicago was amazing, and the concert festivities definitely worth mentioning (but since it seems like so long ago, and there's so much to say, and i'm a little tired from the whirlwind of activity that has been my twelve weeks of nonstop summer, i will refrain from writing and merely post pictures in the near future).

vacation was also splendid. with the time i spent kayaking, surfing, and hanging out at the beach and poolside, along with the time i spent toasting it up in grant park for the concerts, i'm looking a little tanner than usual. and a little tanner than i would prefer. in fact, my brother said i was a little "oompa-loompa"-esque. yikes.

ah well. one thing about the beach: you can't really complain. it's the beach.

pictures to come. and less writing than i would like, as school is nigh and i've yet to unpack to pack again.

endless shorelines,

Sunday, August 06, 2006


i gotta make this really quick cus i gotta go to bed to get ready for a full day of rockin out tomorrow before i move away from my summer residence, the city version of the love of my life, my summer escape, my chicago...

i went to lolla today and yesterday and am going again tomorrow. i've met some great people, made some new friends, and found some new fiery passions for many a new band, and rekindled my love affairs with several more.

in short, it's been a hell of a fest!

of particularly mandatory mention: the flaming lips. OH MY... how wonderful that experience was. fuckin awesome...

also saw sonic youth, which was just about as amazing as you could possibly imagine. oh, and the go!team. videos forthcoming at my youtube channel.

and pictures here!

what would you do with all your power?
(stop war, end hunger, and give the whole world a hug and a kiss, that is what i would do...)

Thursday, August 03, 2006



i've been taking on some ambitious projects as of late.

such as starting an animation (or, with my meager resources and training, a stop motion video of photographs) of my drawing.

it's a recent hobby that's developed into a bit of a silly love fest.

check out more of my storyboards and other silly characters on free radical.

people once sketched to remember the world they lived in. now people use photography to adjust it. are they the same, and can we combine them?

running out of time

my summer in chicago is rapidly coming to a close and i am so sad! i was nervous about coming out here and trying to make it on my own, but i think i've surprised myself and many others with the way in which i have managed to pull thru, and i've learned a lot about myself and my capabilities along the way, as well as making several new friends and falling in love with the city and its cultures.

anyway lollapalooza is this weekend and i am thrilled to see bands such as sonic youth, ween, stars, the go!team, my morning jacket, blackalicious, what made milwaukee famous, the shins, of montreal, and of course, meeting up with my old flame, andrew bird.

also meeting up with a western alum who seems to be quite cool (his music taste is impeccable!) and reminds me of a grizzly bear cub.

in other news, the mirror is up and running now. my new blog, free radical writings (aka, which i conceived to be my artistic residence on the web, will host videos, animations, cartoons, artwork, poetry, and ideas for future novels and films. i want to see if i can create a "serious" personal blog, something more than just an online diary.

so check it out and check yourself in,

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

forked in the face!

i went to pitchfork this past weekend... still recuperating.

it was a fest indeed, and i had the aural pleasure of seeing such stand-up acts as the walkmen, band of horses, mountain goats, ted leo, silver jews, JENS LEKMAN (whose set i missed except for the last two songs, but he ROCKED that shit out. it was fuckin awesome. JENS: i love you. marry me won't you?)

there were also stirring performances and debuts from yo la tengo and some crazy dance remixes from diplo and ada.

check out a video of yo la tengo's new song, "weakest part" here. and watch diplo mix it up with the bangles here.

sunburnt to hell and feeling tired